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[bard_linn]

My mother had noted a sharp increase of friction between CBL and I. She says I’ve gotten “more sharp tongued” lately and that’s setting Ann off. Now, part of this IS Ann’s fault, but she is going through the teenage angst stage, so I really should be more lenient. Some of it is its just fun to fence words, and nobody around seems to be seeing it as a game anymore. The rest is, as she probably said, due to frustration.

I’m used to having time alone to myself, completely to myself. The last two weeks I’m having a harder and harder time being able to walk around the house and not have people everywhere. It’s driving me insane. Maybe I should just apply for a library job to avoid people – it would be a lot easier. :/

There's somethign else as well, but I'm not ready to discuss that yet.

On top of that I keep getting asked to do things, or end up doing things…and other people aren’t pitching back, especially CBL. Mom is working her tail off, but I wish she would stop taking so many kids and work with the family more. I am not, as Ann so forcefully reminds me on a regular basis, her mother and I wish I would stop feeling like I had be.

In addition I’m going through self esteem problems again. I wish I wasn’t such a damn over achiver some days. *kicks self*

And on a final note: People, read author’s notes. They are there for a reason, not just to take up space. If you don’t notice something because you don’t read the important notes, then its hardly the author’s fault. :P

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[arrghigiveup.livejournal.com]

Although I don't know about the sibling thing, I know how you feel about having too many people around. It's as though I have this daily quota of how much cheerfulness I can muster and amount of interation with other people I can take, and once I use it up, I become very tired and irritable.

The only thing I can say is, you sound like you should take a break as soon as you can. Spend a couple of days locked up in your room with a good book. Or better, a couple of days out in a corner of a cafe somewhere with a good book. It'll probably be far easier to deal with all the other problems when you've got your energy back =)