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So today I went and took my sister to ice skating lessons, taking Learning Outside the Lines with me, a book I have to read for my one class and do responses for.

This is mistake number 1.

The book had me in tears by page three. The first two chapters are about a student with dyslexia and a student with ADHD. Now, if I had known it would have affected me that badly, I would have taken the process standard book I have to read. There is NOTHING as unemotionally stirring as the process standards. So I’m sitting there, bawling my eyes out and unable to get my emotions under control. My sister comes out and notices and is an ANGEL the rest of the day. <3 Eventually we go home, and I stop at my uncles gas station. I go to pull out my credit card and guess what.

It’s not there.

Thankfully I had enough cash, so I paid the bill and went home, ripping everything apart to try and find it. I don’t, and predictably go to pieces, again. My Achilles heal is my own emotions. I’m extremely good at bottling them up and locking them down but when they come out…it gets messy. Very messy. Mom calms me down and we go to the last place we look – the college bookstore. Then we get a phone call and one of the ice guards found it at the rink. How it fell out I don’t know, but that person has my undying gratitude. Gave them a ten dollar tip then headed off to get lunch. (Cherry Pepsi and Mexican do wonders after crying for a long time.) Bad thing about these types of bouts is my eyes ache horribly for hours afterwards, which makes it hard to focus, which makes me tired. Ended up helping Mom with the grocery shopping (it’s can-can for any of you familiar with the term, which meant three carts worth of stuff) and could barely stand up or keep my eyes open by the time we were done. Came home and slept for three hours, then get woken up for dinner and have basically spaced since.

I’ll be okay, but how the heck I’m going to get those response papers for that book done, I don’t know. I should mention I have the most supportive family ever. No one yelled at me and I got lots of hugs. *LOVES FAMILY SO MUCH*